You know what I have always been good at? Memorization; I can listen to a song once and know the lyrics from start to finish (even songs in Spanish…I don’t speak Spanish by the way), and I know almost every capitol of the most obscure countries (thanks, freshman year geography!). The reason that little fun fact has any relevance to my current update (or rant, rant may more accurately describe this piece of writing) is because lately my memory and my mind in general have been lost. Where exactly have they gone, I’m not sure—but recently, I really haven’t been on top of my game. For starters, while taking a short trip home this past weekend I brought my computer along knowing that I’d want to write several blog drafts since I had some time, all was good and well until I arrived back from my trip only to realize I had left my computer at my parent’s house (I also didn’t get any drafts written…..). While leaving my computer isn’t the worst thing that could happen…it does make doing any of my homework for my online class quite impossible and it’s pretty hard for me to watch Netflix in bed without it (I currently can’t decide which of those two setbacks is worse). Along with leaving my computer, I also left an ENTIRE case of Bud Light Mango-ritas (yes I’m talking about the really crappy margaritas in a can, but I’ll take any adult beverages I can get my hands on these day ). Now I have to be completely honest, while my memory and accumulation of the most useless information in the world is always on point, my short term memory tends to slack a little…..I forget to take my laundry out of the dryer all the time (my clothes tend to be wrinkly on a regular basis…sorry mom!), most days I forget to put on my class ring (I only paid $600 for it), and I often times forget where I park my car (even when it’s in a lot with only 10 spots). So, as you can see I’m a master when it comes to knowing the exact date a movie came out, but I can’t remember where I set my phone down when coming home for the day! While these traits work in my benefit some days….they definitely have not helped me out at all this past week.
As I mentioned before, my week already started a little rough; I left my computer and my margaritas in a can back in Dallas (a real tragedy, I know)! In the grand scheme of things, leaving my stuff behind is not the worst thing in the world, I’ll be back in Dallas in a few days before I leave for vacation, but it just adds to my overall frustration level throughout the day. To add insult to injury, my mind has been in a complete daze for the past two weeks…..I’m not sure if I could tell you what color my hair is at the moment. My body is in full swing—I’m moving and shaking (okay…maybe not shaking, but you get the point) as I usually do, but my mind has been in a complete fog, my coworkers and friends could be telling me the most juiciest piece of gossip and I wouldn’t even hear it (good gossip is my guilty pleasure). Today, I came into work almost two hours late because I forgot to set my alarm the night before, now like I said I forget many things but that is not one of them…..I lost two hours’ worth of pay for that (which is like barely $20….but it still sucks). This evening when heading home for the day, I drove all the way to my apartment (the one I moved out of on Saturday) not realizing I no longer lived there until I got all the way to the front door (my new house is about 15 minutes away of course). Honestly, I’m quite shocked my thoughts are clear enough for me to write this…..they may not be this may not make any sense at all, so if that is the case I’m excusing my mess now. Ultimately, I am desperately trying to figure out what is happening to me and my head at the moment, but I can’t….nothing really crucial is happening in my life, I’m a little stressed about school and work but nothing out of the ordinary. So, why is it that I cannot focus or think straight to save my life (this is not a rhetorical question…if you know please tell me ASAP)?
My only redemption through this craziness is that I leave for vacation on Sunday. My only hope is that I will be out of this daze the minute I board the plane, nothing sounds worse than not being coherent while on vacation (especially since I will have 10 days away from work and tantrum throwing children)! If I can get my shit together…I will update everyone a little more on my vacation and all the interesting things that will be happening in my life. However, for now, I leave you with this…..Maya’s body is here but her witty, dry, and quirky self is GONE. If you find my mind though please do not hesitate to direct me to it….just warning you though, you’ll probably have to repeat yourself once or twice before I fully process what you say.
P.S: I was SO dedicated to writing this I drove all the way to the computer lab on campus to do it…..I really am going crazy!!!!=/=/
Catch you on the flipside!